a regular muggle living in an all to muggle-world, a little part of me died when i realised i'd never get to go to hogwarts. i want to be 11 again. but it's too late, cause severus snape's already dead. so is michael jackson. why am i always just a little too late?
Yap Yan Ling.

21.08.1989.
super_coolz@hotmail.com

i just wish for only you.
no wishlist YET.

A tribute to sa lao yi..

I woke this morning to the news that sa lao yi passed away last night not long after we went home =( i guess she was waiting for her durian and when she finally got to taste it, she passed on peacefully =) although the parting is sad, but it is a relief as sa lao yi is no longer suffering the pains of fighting cancer. she was a strong woman as my grandma was =) sa lao yi will remain in our hearts, her memories will forever remain, to be missed and not to be forgotten =) however strong a person is, when your time's up u just have to go.. part peacefully and you'll know that your loved ones will take it in their stride and stand strong to brave whatever that awaits the near future. =)

i remember when i was young, she used to come over to our houes almost every weekend to play mahjong with my parents =) whenever she came over, she would never fail to buy my sisters and i snacks or toys =) she always brought something whenever she came and my sisters and i always anticipated her arrival.. as we got older and started growing up, the mahjong sessions became less frequent and almost all at once, the mahjong sessions stopped.. although we would miss her treats, we knew that we are not dependent on sa lao yi and didnt really bother about whether there was going to be mahjong or not as we were growing up and sa lao yi seldom brought snacks.. but i know that no matter how old u are, kids will always be kids in the eyes of a grown up. =)

after years of separations from the mahjong sessions, we only saw sa lao yi on occasions like chinese new year or birthdays or family gatherings.. after a while, her cancer started. although we were kept from it, we found out in the end as sa lao yi frequent the hospitals quite often.. she had gone through countless operations and stays at the hospital, and each time was a painful experience but she was strong and she hardly showed that she was in pain.. everytime we visited her there would be a smile on her face.. =) it was only recently that her condition started deteriorating and she was hospitalized for quite some time.. although she seemed well during the first 2 days of chinese new year, on the 3rd day her condition was worse and she had to be sent to the hospital. she held on for so long until she could take it no more, she was then given morphine to ease her pain.. and since tuesday till the time she passed on, she didnt open her eyes at all but we all knew clearly that she could hear us.. so my granduncles/aunties, uncles and aunties chatted and joked in the ward.. knowing that she may not live through the night we just kept to ourselves and behaved differently.. till that tragic moment when she passed on.. at last, she is free from her sufferings while we have come to accept death and that we will live life to the fullest, not letting any obstacles in the way put us down.. and as stated by the famous quote "live each day as it were your last" is what i shall do and i will miss you sa lao yi... rest in peace.